Movies to watch/re-watch:

-Inglorious Basterds
-Closer
-Dead Poets Society
-Jennifer's Body
-Kill Bill
-The Professional

Just watched an inspirational movie, and like all inspirational movies, this one made me want to change for the better. Live a more honest, full life.

I do this often-- the whole 'Today is the first day of the rest of my life' thing. Problem is, like all highs, it wears off. Starts with a flood and ends with a trickle, and in few days, we're back to square one. I don't think I can ever make a habit of being good.

I only get these temporary, periodic episodes of feeling like a better human being. Still, I hope the feeling would stay.

I've always wondered if people really are capable of change-- the inherent kind that roots from the desire to be a better person. I wonder if it's possible, or if we're all just enslaved by our human tendencies, ingrained in every thought and action. And that no matter how much we want it, to change for the better, we're just going to end up failing every time because of the residues of our previous selves.


Not exactly an optimistic thought, I know. I'd actually like to disprove it myself.

Here's what’s going to happen: You are going to let people cut you in the line. You are going to pay the fines. You are going to follow all the rules. You will never get what you want, because you will be too busy people-pleasing your way through life. You’re spineless. You’re going to say Yes, That’s alright, Whatever you want, forever. Whatever they want. Whatever they want. It’s alright. Yes. Someday you will say to someone, “If you love me, you will do this for me.” And they will answer, “If you love yourself, you will do it for yourself.” And you will say, “Oh.” Shrug. Carry on.

The thing is, you keep staring out at the horizon, and you blame everything but your own legs for not taking you where it leads. You have all these reasons, and sure, some of them make sense, but really: it’s your own fault. And you kind of know it. Only you’re too scared to admit that, because then you’d be forced to act, and that’s not really your strong point, is it?

Stop complaining. Don’t say no one understands, or nothing is as it was (when things were as easy as breathing, when it was never a question but a constant, unrelenting fact). You know that this isn’t the place where they plant great things. The soil is not fertile; it is cracked dry with lines and lines of jagged earth, and the sun is not as bright in this little space.

But know that you will grow if you want to. Fuck sunlight and water, you will spring from the soil out of sheer determination because you want to, you’ll crawl out of dirt and come out beautiful because really, underground isn’t where you’ve dreamed of being your entire life.

If you want to be great, then be great.

Hm, I made Agyness Deyn icons.



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I made my first animated icon!



I forgot to put a border, but I'll do that later cause I have to go but HAHA i made an animated icon, ME FTW, I'mma make more when I get back.

Get Your Cyborg Name

Yes.

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I got a FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT, people. Someone whack me with an ORCA WHALE.

Then, ADD ME.

*headdesk*

Old and new!




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